I never fully understood why vampires were different then humans...when I was alive. Now that I am living through all this, I understand it. We don't sleep, we just clear our minds of every thought and shut down all our senses. We even stop breathing too, so if a human were to come across one of us as we 'slept' then it would look like a dead body.
We don't need to eat, but we can. I don't know what happens to the food though. That is still a mystery I may never find the answer to. But we thirst, as much as a person in the desert for the first time. It even causes physical pain, which sucks more than the first Dracula.
I don't know how, or when, but I ended up in the backseat of a car. A very dark tinted car, as I sat up, I noticed that we were moving very fast down the streets of my town. (no offense but it would be better if you don't know where I am with them)
"We are almost there, Caius. Are you sure he will not be upset?" A new voice asked...I took a deep breath and quickly found the sweet scent of Caius in the passenger seat and a new, forest smell from the driver.
"He might, but princess will change his mind. He is a sucker for her."
"Isn't everybody?" they both laughed as I reached for the door handle. The driver cleared his throat and caught my eye in the rear view mirror. My hand pulled quickly back to place it over my still heart. "So she decided to join us. You sure did stay out for a while, I guess putting her in the car must have roused her."
"Yes, the shock must have been too much and it seemed like she fainted after we got away from the Gangrel Clan." the driver was silent as he turned his eyes back to the road. It was all silent as I sat up, it felt weird being in a car after such a long time. The last time I had been in one, I was with him....we were arguing. No, that's the human you. Let the animal take control.
"Home, sweet home." the driver murmured pulling into a garage.
"And just before the sunrise, you are too good, Charlie."
"If I hadn't been out on errands, you two would be stuck in some old abandoned building for the day." Charlie commented opening his door, Caius got out fluently and went to open the door for me. He offered me his hand to help me out but i ignored it and crawled awkwardly from the back seat. "Such a rebel."
I glared at him as he smirked at me, with one pat on the back for Caius, Charlie was gone. Caius went to the door and looked back at me as I stood as a statue.
"Come on, you don't want to stay in the garage all day do you?" I growled at him but followed him into the larger house. It was fantastic, everything so clean, perfect, and expensive. I was staring at the hundreds of paintings lining the walls, I didn't notice the little girl and the older gentleman waiting for us. Till Caius pulled me to a stop.
"My lord." he did a bow at the waist then smiled kindly at the girl. "Princess Mika."
She smiled brightly at us and turned her eyes onto me, before frowning. She looked at the older man and back at me.
"Why is she so frightened?" her voice was like an angel's, only to match her face and the blond curls hanging down past her chin. Caius went to explain but she held her hand up to stop him as she moved closer to me. "Why are you frightened?"
"She had a run in with Gangrel Clan." Caius answered as I remained silent. She glared at him, with the face that said was-I-asking-you. She looked back at me and I nodded.
"Don't worry, we will never let them hurt you." she held her soft, smooth looking hand toward me, and I placed mine in hers. "They can never hurt you, because you're one of us now. Welcome to the Lasombra Clan."
Thursday, October 30, 2008
Monday, October 27, 2008
Monsters run and hide
I had hoped the screaming would tip off Caius but he did not run over to be the hero again. Instead they continued to smirk as one ripped me into a standing position by my hair, my eyes wanted to tear up but nothing happened. My chest sobbed uselessly as he held me a few inches off the ground. He was a tall boy, could have been two feet taller than me, his eyes looked glassy in the street lights, like two small milky orbs.
"I can't see the damn thing....but I can sure as hell smell it." He growled to the others and they smirked. There was a furious growl and a quick movement, one of the others that had been standing around the huge one was being held captive around the neck by Caius.
"Release her, or I break his neck." there was no doubt in my mind that he would. I watched the other boy look frantically around for Bryce but he seemed to be nowhere in sight. The large one dropped me, and once again I landed hard on my ass.
"You won't win, you monster." he growled at Caius, as i hurried to back away from him, not bothering to stand up.
"I have no intentions of fighting you, Ben. I have orders too, and I need her alive for that." Caius said releasing the small one he had just held hostage, the big one laughed at that and shook his head.
"This one won't last that long, she is too....human to be like you." he growled and stared off blankly. Caius moved quickly to grab me under the arms, he genlty pulled me to my feet and glared at him.
"A blind pup should have been killed at birth...but you are still alive aren't you, Ben?" Ben's face hardened and the other two glared at Caius. "Goodnight, pups."
"She is not what you expect, she has always been different." a bloody Bryce said appearing at Ben's elbow. Caius pushed me behind himself and smirked at him.
"Then she would be perfect for my family. Give my condolences to Lyun....for having such a pathetic search force." Caius turned and dragged me away. I looked up to see Bryce staring at me with such loss in his eyes, before the eyes went dark as he stepped back into the shadows.
"I can't see the damn thing....but I can sure as hell smell it." He growled to the others and they smirked. There was a furious growl and a quick movement, one of the others that had been standing around the huge one was being held captive around the neck by Caius.
"Release her, or I break his neck." there was no doubt in my mind that he would. I watched the other boy look frantically around for Bryce but he seemed to be nowhere in sight. The large one dropped me, and once again I landed hard on my ass.
"You won't win, you monster." he growled at Caius, as i hurried to back away from him, not bothering to stand up.
"I have no intentions of fighting you, Ben. I have orders too, and I need her alive for that." Caius said releasing the small one he had just held hostage, the big one laughed at that and shook his head.
"This one won't last that long, she is too....human to be like you." he growled and stared off blankly. Caius moved quickly to grab me under the arms, he genlty pulled me to my feet and glared at him.
"A blind pup should have been killed at birth...but you are still alive aren't you, Ben?" Ben's face hardened and the other two glared at Caius. "Goodnight, pups."
"She is not what you expect, she has always been different." a bloody Bryce said appearing at Ben's elbow. Caius pushed me behind himself and smirked at him.
"Then she would be perfect for my family. Give my condolences to Lyun....for having such a pathetic search force." Caius turned and dragged me away. I looked up to see Bryce staring at me with such loss in his eyes, before the eyes went dark as he stepped back into the shadows.
Sunday, October 26, 2008
he is different in everyway
It had been forever since that last day there. Since I saw the last sunrise of my life....since I have walked into school like any other student. The forest has been my home, my safe haven, my everything. But still I stayed there to escape, at night I prowled the streets of this quiet town. I had nothing, and I believe I am going insane...I even started missing all the people from my classes.
His heart beat so fast, his eyes catching every movement. His smirk, his laugh, his touch....would have made my heart beat more frantically then a person having a heart attack, if in fact it was still beating at all. He used to be in my class, but I never bothered to learn his name, until after that dark night where he came to find me.
"I know your secret." He stepped from the shadows and smirked again to me. I crouch down into attack mode and he only laughs. "Child you are, so stupid. You could never....not in a billion years dream of beating me."
"What do you want from me?" I growled at him, he straightened and every tiny hint of happiness vanished from his face.
"You are so impatient." He muttered and smiled a very hard smile. "You can hear my heart, your hunger has risen, hasn't it child?"
"What do you want from me?" I demanded again at him. He growled low in his throat and it had me falling over onto my ass. He loomed over me shaking his head, he reached down towards me and I went to scream before a hand flashed out of the darkness to grab his.
"Keep your hands off of my kind, Bryce." A new voice hissed at the boy, every word that came out was dripping venom.
"You are one to speak, Caius." he growled back, yanking his arm back. Another man stepped from the shadows, but I heard no heartbeat, but I smelt such a sweet scent flowing from his skin. "She is on our grounds."
"Has she attacked on your grounds?" Bryce remained quiet and Caius went on. "Then she has no reason to be punished. Now leave her be."
"She can't stay anywhere near here. Her family lives nearby, she is a danger of exposing the night walkers." Bryce growled, both got into each others faces and seemed to have forgot me...I crawled onto my hands and knees and tried to escape into the darkness.
A foot rammed down onto my back and I went onto the ground. I looked up to see three other figures standing around me. Their hearts beat against their ribcages, their breaths panting, and their scents overwhelming.
"Somebody is in the wrong place at the wrong time." one growled at me as they smirked. This time I was able to scream...and by god, I did with every ounce of might in my body.
His heart beat so fast, his eyes catching every movement. His smirk, his laugh, his touch....would have made my heart beat more frantically then a person having a heart attack, if in fact it was still beating at all. He used to be in my class, but I never bothered to learn his name, until after that dark night where he came to find me.
"I know your secret." He stepped from the shadows and smirked again to me. I crouch down into attack mode and he only laughs. "Child you are, so stupid. You could never....not in a billion years dream of beating me."
"What do you want from me?" I growled at him, he straightened and every tiny hint of happiness vanished from his face.
"You are so impatient." He muttered and smiled a very hard smile. "You can hear my heart, your hunger has risen, hasn't it child?"
"What do you want from me?" I demanded again at him. He growled low in his throat and it had me falling over onto my ass. He loomed over me shaking his head, he reached down towards me and I went to scream before a hand flashed out of the darkness to grab his.
"Keep your hands off of my kind, Bryce." A new voice hissed at the boy, every word that came out was dripping venom.
"You are one to speak, Caius." he growled back, yanking his arm back. Another man stepped from the shadows, but I heard no heartbeat, but I smelt such a sweet scent flowing from his skin. "She is on our grounds."
"Has she attacked on your grounds?" Bryce remained quiet and Caius went on. "Then she has no reason to be punished. Now leave her be."
"She can't stay anywhere near here. Her family lives nearby, she is a danger of exposing the night walkers." Bryce growled, both got into each others faces and seemed to have forgot me...I crawled onto my hands and knees and tried to escape into the darkness.
A foot rammed down onto my back and I went onto the ground. I looked up to see three other figures standing around me. Their hearts beat against their ribcages, their breaths panting, and their scents overwhelming.
"Somebody is in the wrong place at the wrong time." one growled at me as they smirked. This time I was able to scream...and by god, I did with every ounce of might in my body.
Friday, October 24, 2008
ha ha ha ha ha
It may sound like I am a rambling idiot, but let's say...what I've gone through has put me through a lot. Mentally and physically.
If I can accept this life I have been dealt. So don't be judgemental...don't call me insane....don't call an idiot. If you can't accept any of this, then that is your funeral. Lord knows what i would do I was somehow pushed off the wagon, maybe I'd take a few people down with me.
Don't mess with the things that walk the night. Don't mess with things you could never understand. You are in above your head, pray you can come up for air.
If I can accept this life I have been dealt. So don't be judgemental...don't call me insane....don't call an idiot. If you can't accept any of this, then that is your funeral. Lord knows what i would do I was somehow pushed off the wagon, maybe I'd take a few people down with me.
Don't mess with the things that walk the night. Don't mess with things you could never understand. You are in above your head, pray you can come up for air.
never
They will hurt you, they will kill you. For being different, for being something more than they are. They will kill you for being better than them. They can never understand, they don't want to understand...they want life to stay the same but they can't even keep the world from falling to peices. They think they can keep us hidden away?
They will push too far and they will never leave us alone. When they push, eventually we will push back...much harder then they could ever push us. Let's say you have something on the edge of a cliff barely on ground...all it needs is one little tap then if falls. When we get pushed then the rationality, the humanity we held onto will fall away and they will face the monsters we really are.
To all those who read this, beware who you push...they just might fall.
They will push too far and they will never leave us alone. When they push, eventually we will push back...much harder then they could ever push us. Let's say you have something on the edge of a cliff barely on ground...all it needs is one little tap then if falls. When we get pushed then the rationality, the humanity we held onto will fall away and they will face the monsters we really are.
To all those who read this, beware who you push...they just might fall.
beginning again
there is nobody like you in a small town, you used to be the same as them but now everything's changed. You've changed...you know nothing will be the same. You want to run away, you are afraid to stay but afraid to leave.
Something burns it's way through your body, trying to take control. That raw animal instict that was never present before. The need to hurt, the thirst that chokes your rationality from coming up. You have to leave but have nowhere to go, then you think about your things...do they really matter to you anymore than they did in the beginning?
You feel like your in hell, you feel wrong, you don't know what's happening. You've changed and feel alone, but you aren't. We are here, never feel alone. Find us, we will save you, we will protect you...from everything including yourself.
Come to us. We will be waiting.
Something burns it's way through your body, trying to take control. That raw animal instict that was never present before. The need to hurt, the thirst that chokes your rationality from coming up. You have to leave but have nowhere to go, then you think about your things...do they really matter to you anymore than they did in the beginning?
You feel like your in hell, you feel wrong, you don't know what's happening. You've changed and feel alone, but you aren't. We are here, never feel alone. Find us, we will save you, we will protect you...from everything including yourself.
Come to us. We will be waiting.
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
faint of heart
what happens when there is no hope?
what happens when there is no chance for survival?
what happens when everything you know turns upside down?
what happens when life can never the same?
what happens if you can never be the same?
what happens when there is no chance for survival?
what happens when everything you know turns upside down?
what happens when life can never the same?
what happens if you can never be the same?
Peices of me
Please…tell me even if it is a lie that you don’t hate me…please tell me that everything will be alright…I’m afraid to keep on living like this if nobody is willing to help me…
Please just tell me that I am strong enough to handle it one more day…please tell me that I will be alright…
Please tell me....I am not alone in this world
Please just tell me that I am strong enough to handle it one more day…please tell me that I will be alright…
Please tell me....I am not alone in this world
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